will this ever go away??? i know it will, but thats not the point

I'm cold. i'm cold as a fucking dead fish.... 

And i'm lacking of love, and i'm not lacking of hope. 
but there is nothing to hope for

There is really nothing that i really want. ‘cause everything is empty.....

I dont feel anything at all. Just this fucking headache and nothing at all.

I cant even cry. and thats supposed to come when you are NOT miserable, cause you dont feel lonely.

despite the fact that you can see you are. or the world claim to

and I'm so high! although i'm not

nothing at all. and thats all!